Let us take a moment to get to know ourselves shall we? I started this blog at the request of a friend. That is, I erased the whiny self-indulgent posts that previously inhabited this page and got a fresh start at the request of a friend.
My friend thought that it would be best for me to have some place to vent my emotions and struggles without having to deal with beingĀ judged by anyone I know or care about, and to that end she suggested I start a blog and fill it with all of the innermost shit that I keep bottled up.
Do not, however, let the fact that you are reading my metaphorical toilet stop you from enjoying the new and improved self-indulgent whiny posts that I will be putting onto this site with hopefully some regularity. If, for some reason, you find yourself lusting for a knowledge of the deepest, most angsty, thoughts of a midwestern high school graduate then you have hit the gold mine . I intend to ramble a lot. I also intend to post things I will regret. So look forward to that.
Speaking of posts I will regret, in this first post, aside from the above introduction, I intend to try to define myself via text. This has always proven (through both dating sites and emails) to be nearly impossible and always uncomfortable but here we go.
My name is Thor. I am 19. I graduated from a small town high school. On the night of my graduation all of my friends were at my ex’s so I bought Mcdonalds gorged myself , watched TV and pretended I wasn’t crying. At any given time in my life I have had no more than three people that I would call friends, and even less that I am likely to spend time with without suffering from the urge to commit vehicular homicide.
I like folk/comedy bands, and pretty much anything that can be defined as Rock and Roll, though I’ve always been more about the lyrics than the music so as long as I respect whoever writes their songs I will probably be pretty into them.
I love to eat and hate how I look. I love drawing and hate my drawings. I love reading and hate most books. I love videogames and I hateĀ “gamers” as a whole. I like women but have never dated one I respected. And I love people but am scared to death of interacting with them.
I was given pills for social anxiety which might have worked but I didn’t think they were working at the time. Plus they gave me worse insomnia. So I threw them out.
Well shut them away really. I would pull them out and take them whenever I needed to stay up to write a paper or, more often, beat a game.
I think I alienate people though it could very well be my imagination. I think that I am too smart for my own good though all evidence points to the contrary. I went through highschool as a lonely outcast until I got a girlfriend and joined the Speech team. Then she cheated on me, broke up with me, all my friends took her side and I dropped out of high school. I managed, through some strenuous school, to pass after that whole ordeal leaving me with terrible grades friends I didn’t really trust and as always no motivation to try at anything.
Currently I deal with the daunting tasks of trying to be more charming and attractive, and trying to move my life in a directions that gives me just a LITTLE less time to waste sitting around the house feeling sorry for myself.
I am working on my ACT.
My practice score was: Reading: 34 English: 30 Math: quit and chucked the book across the room Science: got all but 11 wrong.
I am tired and in some kind of state of severe head pain, so I am going to pretend that I wrapped up the infinite complexity that is human emotion and call it a day.
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